Sunday, April 22, 2007

just one more week had passed...
time really really flies...
certain things wait for no man,but yet here am i still waiting for you..
do you know??

16/04/07
well had a fever, was at Samuel's house with Gary and Melanie too.. was down with a flu at first. but don't know what happened,just couldn't sleep that whole night. waking up with a headache and then perhaps I've got my fever there and then.. don't have the mood to sort of fool around in school like i used to. everything seemed to change,i must too...

17,18/04/07
my fever is not going away. really don't have that mood to play study. in class,while teachers are lecturing,i guess i spend half of the time sleeping or just day-dreaming. couple of teachers asked what happened to me,well i just told them I'm sick and nothing else,didn't want to add on. miss ilan had been having mood swings or she's just being bias?? can't she just understand more of us? everyday scold us,say we're noisy had she ever thought of other classes? because at times they're like so much noisier than our class.. it's just so not fair, comparing our class with the others. just like comparing while to black, they will never be the same rights?

19/04/07
well still got fever and had a headache too.. gosh why did my sickness came only the time when its going to be exams? i suppose to be studying and paying attention in class. but obviously i got no mood to do that. had EL and CL paper 1. find both paper ok,but find my essays..the way i wrote it sucks.guys wanted to go out and celebrate whatsoever.didn't really want to tag along..i mean like guys,now is exams can't you people just don't play for awhile and just study??

20/04/07
my stupid fever just don't want to go away and this time down with such a big headache,feel asleep during geography lessons i guess...took my paper, i failed again. f**k geography man, all 3 test fail. from A1-F9 its just so disappointing man..its not that i didn't study whatsoever, i did study... man what's wrong with me!! just couldn't take it anymore man...is the teacher's fault or what?? or maybe i shouldn't blame on the others like everyone will say..how lame can that be..

21/04/07
spend my whole morning on the computer, didn't get to play much. don't know what game to play.. i surf the net... for science and literature.. woah my first time but its kinda worth it. found some stuff that is useful to science but just couldn't understand it.. i think i am so going to fail my coming science test. literature,those notes is kinda useful, took them down on so that i can memorise. i think I'll do more of this kind of independent learning,maybe i should have done this so so much earlier eh?? afternoon, sister's boyfriend came to fetch my mum,sis and i go KK hospital to make my specs. cool finally got new specs. ok its half-frame and black colour.. will be getting it next Saturday.just can't wait...
the same as cant waiting for you...
then i spend my whole afternoon watching television.don't want myself to stop and think about unhappy stuff.just want to hide from it man.usually i will call up my friends and chat with them but obviously don't have the mood.nowsaday I've got no mood for everything or anything.things that i cared about doesn't care about me..or is it i don't know??

`my love